Those of us who follow MMA know that it only takes the one well-timed punch to send weeks and months of hard work crashing down to the canvas. We’ve seen it time and time again.
Unfortunately for (Julian “Julz The Jackel” Rabaud) the internet is currently enjoying this fact at his expense. In the video below, Julz – in his attempt to build hype for his upcoming title defense – probably got a little overzealous in a stare off with rival Ben Nguyen for Nitro 11. No one here at CSF begrudges a fighter trying to gain a mental edge over their opponent, but it is clear that Ben is uncomfortable with the confrontation, which should have probably signaled Julz to take it easy.
His press conference behavior aside, what happened in the ring at Nitro 11 is there for everyone to see (it’s currently blowing up online at the moment) – it’s the impact the fight had on Julz that seems to have been lost since the video hit the social media:
He detailed the near fatal impact the fight had on him when speaking with The MMA Corner:
“I think after the last fight, it was kinda clear that I was in a bit of shock with the outcome, and I think a lot of other people were, too,” Rabaud confessed. “We’ve spoken about my anxiety before, and it being a massive problem in my life. Conquering that and putting that behind me was the best thing that happened to me—being able to be confident and live life and doing what I do without having to worry about the anxiety and having panic attacks before a fight. After the last fight, though, when I was getting off the floor and getting into the back room, it just hit me. I fell into a massive panic attack. I knew what it was and I was scared.”
“The last thing I wanted to do was look at that fight, think of the fight, think of that time, so I jumped on a plane and I left to Sydney, where I spent time with my girlfriend looking after me, and I just felt so much fucking heartache about the fight. That anxiety, it almost killed me. When you’ve got a barrel of a shotgun pointed to your head, you think a bit differently,” Rabaud admitted. “You start thinking about yourself, you start thinking about your family and you start thinking about your life. And unfortunately, I’m not gonna lie, fighting for me, all that shit that went on, I was quite upset with myself. I was quite upset with what happened and the fact that I didn’t know that this could happen to me and this demon and this personal thing inside me could come back and haunt me again.”
Whilst the internet can be a great place for entertainment, this is a timely reminder that there are real people with real lives behind the footage. In this case, a fighter trying to promote his fight and a battle with anxiety.
As for Julz… well, he’s back on the grind:
I wanna fu*kin get out there again; I wanna say I’m sorry. I wanna show I’m sorry to Nitro. I wanna give the people what they wanted to see, what I hyped, what we published, all that. F*ck, I just wanna give it all back, everything that we promised. That’s the worst thing, telling the world that you’re gonna do something and not being able to do it. And it happens day in and day out with fighters. And for anybody where that has happened, they should fix it, or at least fu*king try.
The fight game needs big personalities, and Julz is certainly one of them. We wish him all the best.